Deception

Baby its time he said wearing a smile that curved his chin halfway, I was terrified but somehow I knew I had to do it,”the pain would be for a while”he said and of course I believe him but I couldn’t help but to hesitated as the fear of him doing it to me had frozen my heart ,after a while I made up my mind and that was it,then he started so slowly but it was so very painful I tried to hold myself but I couldn’t It was something I couldn’t control so I started to cry out softly yet he continued and it became unbearable so I screamed out loud as I tried to stop him,trying to hold his hands but no he won’t stop, I began to beg but no he won’t listen,the pain was something else it was as if my breath was going to seize,I started having headache so I held my head instead with my two hands giving him the freedom he needed to do it”you are strong,my dear just hold yourself” he pursed then he started again hai! ah!ahs!I couldn’t control it. “I said the pain is just for a while”he repeated but I tried begging him again but no he won’t listen I started screaming on top of my voice now and that made him angry “would you stop that?”he yelled at me, his eyes gloomy and furious,it was a mixed expression of pity and disgust then I coward and I held my lips firmly with my hand

No one would really understand how painful it is, it’s as if I was in another planet may be mecury because it is the hottest they say and this made me to start sweating profusely.So many people told me it Will be painful but I never knew it will be this painful” you need to control yourself “he paused” you need to be strong “he managed to say calmly,this gingered me so I decided I was going to be strong,i can do this I said determined then I held my breath and tightened my lips,damn the consequences I said… So he continued this time slowly,slowly and more painful then suddenly he became rash and again I failed,again I started to scream as I jabbed but this time,he was also determined so he didn’t care,I started to cry now begging him but he wore deaf ears to listen,I tried holding his hands but he pushed my hands,he was not just determined he was persistent and my tears was not going to stop him neither was my pleading.

I have seen it, yes! I saw it and this brought everything to normality,I was relieved because he told me until I see it he won’t stop,my heart lipped for joy when the blood was replaced with a fluid which appears to be water so he then stopped.hmmmmm! so that was how my Dad pressed the purse out of my boil,I must confess it wasn’t easy at all because it was very painful in fact its an experiences I would never forget. Just as He said I wasn’t feeling the pain any more, sure the pain was just for a while .yeah it’s like a bitter leaf which is bitter when you chew it but after it is swallowed it becomes sweet and that’s life for you too when you pass through hard time be patient, determined and persistent at the end it will be sweet.” its done now my baby “Dad muttered wearing a smiling ,that was my dad for you he won’t stop calling me a baby despite the fact I just celebrated my 20th birthday three months ago but I was still his baby.

Published by faithakatiki

Faith Joseph is a Nigerian Citizen, a Personal Development Blogger and a young social development champion and a Lawyer by Profession. Akatiki is an lover of all forms of expressive art and has excelled in performing various. She is a passionate Writer and an Activist, she believes strongly in gender equity and holds the view that rather than being treated as male or female, we should be treated as humans irrespective of gender and make the world a better place for all.

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